My Greatest Fear

An interesting question.

I watched a TV programme on Sunday, Astronauts: Do You Have What It Takes? which is a gruelling yet highly addictive selection process of 12 seriously accomplished candidates all grappling to win a chance of walking on the moon. I am talking the likes of nuclear engineers, surgeons and RAF pilots where only one will make it through. And the best bit, they can be asked to leave at any time!

A series of physical and psychological tests are bestowed upon the candidates, the latter being the most fascinating to me. Even down to their micro-expressions which are constantly analysed. In one scene their personality undertakes a probing session when asked questions such as, “What is your biggest mistake?” and “What is your greatest fear?”

Picture of woman sat at a table with cup of coffee with 'Guts over fear' tattoo

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I don’t know about you but whenever I watch programmes like this I immediately start answering the question in my own head. I think the realisation that every thought process we have, every action we take and the behaviour we display reveals something about who we are as a person and it made me evaluate myself. Nowadays it’s becoming increasingly difficult for those who are untrue, to keep the mask on all the time. One action, word or expression can display a different persona. It’s captivating and engrossing stuff.

So one question in particular, “What is your greatest fear?” has been on my mind ever since. I knew the answer deep down and the fact that it fills me with panic and dread has given me a life injection.

I don’t mind sharing my greatest fear with you. It’s being an elderly lady sitting in a rocking chair, reflecting on life feeling upset that I didn’t live my life the way I wanted to, disappointed that I wasted my life and that I didn’t accomplish all my hopes and dreams. The anxiety and frustration this brings really gives me a good kick up the backside, a determination almost that I won’t be in that situation.

Live life to the fullest because it only happens once

~Maddi Jenkins

So what do we do to overcome our fears? Does it drive us to doing the things we think we cannot do or is it a clear indication of the next thing we need to do? Or is there even an argument which says so what? Everyone fears something in some shape or form but does it mean we should put ourselves under pressure to overcome it or is it ok being content in not wanting to fight or change it?

Happy woman stood in the sea with her arms up

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One programme led me to feeling all these emotions but it has most definitely spurred me on to ensuring I live the best life that I can, the way I want to. It was a fantastic introduction to the series, one which has filled me with admiration for these smart individuals who have made it to the final 12.

I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear

~Nelson Mandela

I cannot wait for the next episode of Astronauts. Sunday night TV just got good. Catch up here on iPlayer to see the first episode or watch it live on BBC Two, Sundays at 9pm.

What is your greatest fear?

N x

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  1. August 23, 2017 / 5:00 pm

    Ooooh I haven’t heard of this show – but it sounds brilliant! My biggest fear is having the dream life and then all of a sudden it being ripped away through outside forces (child or husband dies, for example) … completely unpredictable, but it terrifies me x

    • niccimcshane
      August 23, 2017 / 5:02 pm

      It was fab I really can’t wait for the next episode! Oh gosh I can understand why that is your biggest fear, it’s an awful thing. But they do say the more you think of something whether it be a good or bad thing then it brings more of that to you. So really love and enjoy every second of the life you have and who is in it and you’re going to be just fine! Big hugs! Xxxxx

  2. August 24, 2017 / 6:36 pm

    I loved reading this because it really made me think. I always love having deep conversations with my friends.
    My biggest fear is dying before I get to where I want to be. Many of my biggest fears that I had when I was younger, have actually happened to me already.
    Not doing what I set out to do though really scares me. This sounds super morbid but for some reason I have it in my head that I will die young, so I don’t picture being old on a rocking chair, but I do have an image of me in the same position in ten years. Yes that is actually my biggest fear – being in the same place in ten or twenty years whilst everyone around me moves on.
    Anyway, this is an amazing post! xxxxx

    • niccimcshane
      August 24, 2017 / 6:57 pm

      Oh Thankyou heaps you have made my day. It isn’t morbid at all I think that we can’t help how we feel and those demons that sit on our shoulder can have a worrying and negative impact but you’re such an amazing inspirational woman there is NO way you’re going to end up in the same place! You’ve come so far already! Xxxxx

      • August 25, 2017 / 1:17 pm

        Thank you!! I suppose in a way our fears help us to keep pursuing. If we were not worried about anything, we may not work as hard. xxxxx

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